So what’s this for?

Dec 3, 2025

What do I want this page to be? I know there are women out there who have either gone through what I have or have felt the same things I have. It can feel lonely when you're looking around, and no one else understands what you're going through. No one can answer your questions, and if we’re being honest, we feel God is never going to answer our questions. You’re perhaps in this awkward space of trusting God, but also unsure whether you should because of everything that has happened. Grief can be both interesting and confusing at times, regardless of where you are in the process. I hope this helps in your process. Even if you're someone reading this that hasn't or isn't going through this, I hope this helps you understand the people around you that are going through this and just don't have the words to express themselves or are too ashamed to admit certain parts of their grief. 

A part of my grief that I was honestly too ashamed to admit was that I was grieving my daughter more than I grieved our first baby. With our first baby, it happened so fast, and it was “easier” in a sense. However, with our daughter, the connection we had with her was different because I carried her longer, made it to the first trimester, gave birth to her, and was able to see and hold her. Our first baby didn't make it out of the first trimester, and we never knew if it was a boy or a girl (although I truly believe it was a boy). 

Wherever you are, I’m glad you’re here, and I’m thankful for your life!